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Saturday, February 6, 2010

Hey all you blog readers,
recently I haven't been posting. whatevs
I'm caught up with the tumbling now-a-days.

Whats going on with me? nothing
All the time, I feel depressed and sad.
I feel like I don't care, about anything.
I feel like I've given up, on everything.
Why? I honestly don't know.
I don't have a reason to be sad, but yet again
I don't have a reason to be happy.
You can give me a reason to smile or laugh.
But I'm telling you, it won't last for very long.
I hate being this way...
I WANT to smile and laugh for endless hours.
I want to get up in the morning with a purpose.
I want to skip every where, like I used to.
I want to forget everything, and live in the moment.

But I can't. No matter how much I try,
I can't find a reason to smile and laugh endlessly.
I can't find a reason to get up in the morning.
I can't find a reason to skip around.
I can't find a reason to live in the moment.

For the past week, I've been crying myself to sleep.
I'll just lie there, thinking of nothing
then tears would fall from my eyes.
If you've seen me these past days, you'd say I'm my normal self.
I guess I fooled you, I barely show my true feelings.


Tomorrow, another day of acting.
but I don't know how long I can keep this "act" going.

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