Saturday, February 27, 2010
-she screams when she coughing or sneezes or yawns. really? WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING?!
-she always says no to most of my questions.
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tells orders me to do something when i'm ALREADY busy doing something else.
-yells about my grades, no matter how high they are
-gets mad when the school calls, then finds out it's just a reminder
-gets mad when I ask my dad instead of her
-gets mad when I sleep late.
-gets mad when I take naps in the middle of the day
-bleaches my clothes, get mad when I complain tells me I should do my own laundry. well I asked you to teach me, you didn't want to, so be quiet
-kicks me off the computer, then gives it to my sister
-when I'm the phone later then 9, she'll pick up and ask she needs it. but she just wanted me to get off the phone.
-gets mad when she see's me just sitting in front of the tv, doing nothing. well you caught me when i'm DONE! whatevs you wanted me to do.
- here's a good one.... gets mad when I'm watching people kissing. ha, seriously? i'm 14 not 4.
-whenever i'm watching something online, she'll ALWAYS ask "who is that?" i don't know... "then why are you watching it?" GEEZ
- hogs the TV watching boring (sometimes stupid) filipino shows. mostly replays
-gets mad when I leave the house for something non-school related.
-gets mad when I leave the house for KFC kore stuff. thinks i'm not even doing my "job" responsibly, that I just goof off.
-when I ask to sign a form for a team or a club, she'll say "noo, you'll be complaining about it later on." well how would we know now?! since you know me soo well. I complain about everything. yeah whatevs
-gets mad when I don't wake up at 6:30 in the morning.. huh really? my ride doesn't come until 7:50
-^ gets mad when she gets back early and I'm not waiting outside (in a breaking snow blizzard) for my ride to come. ? REALLY. really. you trying waiting in -16 for who knows how long
- treats me like i'm 4. probably not. I bet 4 year old gets to chill with friends and shit
-gets angry when she see's me talking to a boy alone... anywhere. in person, on the phone. msn.facebook. CHILL you can't honestly tell me you started liking boys at age 26. cheese sauce
- doesn't like me talking to my cousin, nikko.
- when on vacation, ALWAYS wants me to sleep with her and my dad. I'M NOT F-ING FOUR ANYMORE!!! geez
-^ she stretches her feet like ever 10 minutes.
-puts her boogers in the vicks tub thingy.
- wants me to be a lesbian, or seems that way. only wants me to be friend girls.
- when I ask her to go somewhere with friends or do something, she'll say no. i'll ask why, then make up some stupid excuse on how we're busy. that days comes. i'm sitting at home, angry how I could've gone out.
- tells me i'm getting fatter, I should excerise more uhh. yeah right. I asked you to go freaking biking in the summer you said no. explains why i'm getting fatter? huh
-gets mad when I ask/tell her "last minute", I fully said it a week ago, YOU FORGOT!
-gets mad when I don't come right at 2:20. okay, i need time to get my shit, then find audrey and christianne. that all doesn't happen in a blink of an eye. BE QUIET already
-always yelling at me.
-gets mad when I have no expression in my voice, thinks i'm giving her attitude. well sorry I can't act happy 24/7. it's hard too.
-always say "we'll get it later, when the prices go down" when I want clothes or whatevs. Next time, it's not there anymore.
-gets mad when I don't put my clothes away, sorry ate doesn't like when I go in "her" room. She always slams the door on my feet while i'm leaving. explains why I have random marks at the back of my feet
-gets mad when I don't want to bring my sister clothes to their rooms, one; they don't want me in their rooms. they yell at me when I knock. two: they accuse me of wearing their oversized shit. soo no, i won't bring their clothes if they're gonna do that,
-always wanting to know what I'm talking about with my friends.
-acts nice when other people are over, then when they're gone, start yelling at me to do shit.
-gets mad when I read, hear, watch anything about relationships. she doesn't care that I'm 14, apparently I'm STILL too young
-blames everything on me
I am soo ready to leave....
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF WHEN YOU TALK?
"soo jella, why wearing my bra?"
WHY THE HELL WOULD I WEAR YOUR FCUKING BRA?
I'm A, your freaking size D.
it's like extra small to a large.
It's just fcuking sag down.
YOUR SO FCUKING STUPID TO THINK I'LL WEAR YOUR FUCKING BRA.
"then why is it on your bed?"
UHH well cause maybe you leave it downstairs to fucking dry for a week. Then nanay takes it down and puts in my fucking pile? HUH fucking common sense. stupid piece of shit. I'm not your fucking maid and bring it to you. Everytime I bring your clothes you accuse me of fucking wearing it. I WEAR A FUCKING UNIFORM NOW, why the hell would I need your shirt...? or your pants.
UHH this is fucking pissing me OFF.
YOU SOUND SOO FUCKING STUPID TELLING ME I'M WEARING YOUR BRA.
okay, yeah I'll wear a D cup on my A cup. YEAH, I'll fucking stuff it, and no one would notice. Like I said, it's like wear a large when your extra small. IT'LL BE FUCKING NOTICEABLE. shit. UGHH. whatevs, keep sounding stupid....
cause you know,everyone knows that I wouldn't wear your bra. THATS DISGUSTING.
Monday, February 15, 2010
I think I like "nate"...
Remember him. Yeah I had a dream about him.
I told my friend about my dream and she's like your always talking about him now....
maybe you like like him. Then I think I do...
We're talking more and more.
We sort of have a past... but not in the way you think.
Our siblings were in YFC(youth for christ) together.
And he'd always come with them, then we became friends.
Times grew hard, we grew apart.. didn't talk or see each other for a good 5 years.
I even liked him as a child, I think.
butterfly feeling in your stomach? yeah I liked him as a child.
I stopped liking him, then I like him again.
Is that bad? :/ but there's a twist to all of this.
...wait for it.
he's like a girl in his school. *shoulder shrug*
S'all good? It's a part of life.
Can't get everything we want.
No matter how long we wait for it.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Hey my blog readers,
I probably have 0 readers, but just in case there IS someone reading this...
HELLO :) lol.
'kay so, this post is about my dream I had two naps ago.
btw;this is JUST a dream.There is this boy, who's real name shall remain unknown.
But lets call him Nate? yeah Nate.
Okay my dream was like different scenes, but he was in all of them
Scene one;we were at a school. we weren't alone, obvi.
theres was like other people, but their faces were blurry.
I don't know what we were talking about, we were walking around the school.
laughing, smiling then my friend comes in. Starts talking to us blah blah. and when I looked at him, he had this disappointed face? idk.
Then out of nowhere some... dark guuy comes and asks us where the bathroom is.
We pointed to where it was, then he takes out a gun and points it at me. the ...dark guy says "you asian chink, come with me and your friends won't get hurt." Btw this guy is really stupid cause there's fully witnesses and he's not covering his face or anything. okay back to the dream, Nate jumped infront of me and the ...dark guy shot him. :( soo my friend runs to call someone. and I'm kneeling down over nate. he looks up at me and says "i lo...." then I woke up :/ my moms woke me up . GARR
scene two;we was at a YFC(youth for christ) celebration. Everyone is was dressed up and stuff(Semi formal). It was getting really hot and I stepped outside. A few minutes later, Nate comes and joins me. We got to talking about random things and I started to get cold. He gives me his cardigan. aww lol. and then we see some guy walking down. He's like " yoo kiddies, want some drugs or alcohol? i'll give it for free." Me and nate just turned and started walking inside. then nate smiles at me and hugs me... out of no where. *sigh* then my sister woke me up cause I was sleeping in her room ... ughh
last scenewe was at the mall with friends. but for some reason they ditched and left me and nate alone. we just walked around, talking about random stuff again. Then there's these groups of girls came up to us. flirting with nate, they asked if I was his girlfriend. I was about to say no, but he's like "yeah, she's my girlfriend" and holds my hand. the girls walked away and I heard them loudly say "ohh gross,she's ugly" Nate looks at me and tells me that they wrong. and continues to hold my hand as we walk around. Then we run into our friends that ditch us then asked nate if he told me. and my friends asked me if I told nate. We both look at each other, then back at our friends and said no. they all like " then explain why you holding hands?" nate said "why can't friends hold hands? *looks at me* thats what we are, just friends." my heart dropped :( lol, and I said "yeah, just friends" and I let go and told them I had to go home.
btw; This doesn't mean I have feelings for "nate" or anything. I just have really random and awkward dreams. Like I dreamed of my friends cousin :/ lol. That's just me for you.
enjoy my awkward dreams? lol but I have to go now.
byee, take care and god bless :)
-jouelango
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Hey all you blog readers,
recently I haven't been posting. whatevs
I'm caught up with the tumbling now-a-days.
Whats going on with me?
nothingAll the time, I feel depressed and sad.
I feel like I don't care, about anything.
I feel like I've given up, on everything.
Why? I honestly don't know.
I don't have a reason to be sad, but yet again
I don't have a reason to be happy.
You can give me a reason to smile or laugh.
But I'm telling you, it won't last for very long.
I hate being this way...
I WANT to smile and laugh for endless hours.
I want to get up in the morning with a purpose.
I want to skip every where, like I used to.
I want to forget everything, and live in the moment.
But I can't. No matter how much I try,
I can't find a reason to smile and laugh endlessly.
I can't find a reason to get up in the morning.
I can't find a reason to skip around.
I can't find a reason to live in the moment.
For the past week, I've been crying myself to sleep.
I'll just lie there, thinking of nothing
then tears would fall from my eyes.
If you've seen me these past days, you'd say I'm my normal self.
I guess I fooled you, I barely show my true feelings.
Tomorrow, another day of acting.
but I don't know how long I can keep this "act" going.